Judge a person all by yourself and...

Most of the times in my life, I’m being idle as a lazy person. Sometimes it’s giving me troubles but it’s who I am after all. People have to accept me on that condition even though I’m not in to make their plans unachieved.

So while doing various things which drives me time to time, I’m a lazy wimpy guy in a third of a quarter.

This is a time I spend most of the time being idle, doing nothing except the thing at the office. I also invented a smiley to simply identify ‘being nothing’. it’s <>. Just those lesser than and greater than symbols. That’s to mention that I’m being idle doing this and that and nothing specific. I text my girl that smiley when she asked ‘What the hell you are doing?’

So I’m so much not in to write this right now but the inner sorrow I suffered pulled myself into the terminal again.

It happened yesterday at the office. As we are the salary processing branch of a district office which process salaries of over 2000 employees, we were busy collecting and entering data to the database in past few holydays. Since there was a unofficial gossip saying the salary day is 22nd of February instead of 24th, We had to speed up the process in order to meet the deadline.

But a single member of the branch was missing. Let’s call her Akila. Akila is a newbie who started her duties about 5 months ago. She had given her line of work to another colleague (OK, her name was Geethika) and she was working as twice as much. Myself and my superior concerned the stuff and noticed some mistakes Akila had done. And those were some extreme mistakes, and surely not for the first time. Since we didn’t have proper authority to correct them, we had to wait for Akila to come and give her keys for the documents.

Until then we blamed on her with others. We blamed on her because she didn’t appear in a critical situation and for her irresponsibility for her work. We were in a total neglecting mood about her.

We never expected that the truth might be going to hurt us badly. But it happened. Akila’s story was revealed today, as a secret among few people. I’m not going to share it here but believe me it was so bad. She was hiding her problems from all of us and had her self being busy during working hours. It is an achievement to complete what she had completed before her absence. And the truth was shocking. And made our eyes wet, a little bit. And that sorrow was giving me a terrible pain during the whole day. I know it’s not going to get over by myself even after posting my thoughts here.

Never judge a person all by yourself.

That’s what I learnt from it. It was my mistake to blame her like that without knowing what the real story is. And the real story will never come out except by the coursing person him/herself. So without knowing the real situation, never blame a person. It’s surely hurt you later.

The root for my sorrow is that I believed myself as person who does not blame others like that. Yes, I’m usually not that kind of a person. I’m not a person who’ll take the first story as the truth and forget everything else. I’m usually giving all the others there chance and being the last one to have it. And even for ideas, I’m always keeping my stupid ideas for me while others are continuing with their stupider ideas. I’m just giving them the chance to have it all. Being satisfied with the things I already have.

But this! This suffers. I couldn’t see her face today after she came back from the vacation. I never spoke to her. I had her face visualized and noticed that there was a sad story inside her smile. And my superior and myself took a secret decision to help her out in her duties without letting her know.

That’s the least thing we can do to let her come out with her problems without thinking much about her work.