Love, Marriage, Family and Children - Part 2 - how much you know of your partner

I never wanted a typical married life then. And even now I think marriage destroys relationships. It pulls flying people to ground and glue them tight without letting them fly again. And then it continues as a typical "marriage". Things as bills, various expenses, monthly commitments and family responsibilities become the main reason to be together than anything else. Didn't want that. Didn't wanna kill myself. Wanted to keep loving. Wanted a perfect love. And that's the idiot I was. Should have known that there is no such thing as perfect love.

But in Sri Lanka, there's no possible way of living like that. Whether you like it or not, if you want to have sex with the woman you love, unless it's a sex intedded one, you have to marry her. And let her parents be happily sleeping knowing their daughter holding hands with a legally bonded man. Also for your parents to be satisfied ultimately, thinking their son will behave responsibly and follow the targets to become a man accumilating stuff as wealth, which they consider as the key to prosperity.

So we had to think and decide whether we want to live together for the foreseeable future. The decision was firm and we never talked about it much then and even after, until recently.

And that question lead to many things.

I thought to ask her whether we should consider about a kid because I felt she was suffering from being a No-child woman. But I never had any idea how deep her feelings could have been hurt on that matter. Sometimes I couldn't even tollerate people asking about kids from me. Those people get amazed by hearing that we don't have kids even after being married for 5 years. Some people have tried to convince me to go to see a specific monk or a doctor who treats for those situations. No kids situations. And believe me there are a lot of married couples who are in need of kids and don't have the capacity. It's some kind of a physical or mental problem and there are a lot of people doing treatmets for that. In fact it's kind of an industry. But I don't know how many couples succeeded following those.

So when a couple don't want kids by their choice, people can't beleive it. I got used to keep my mouth shut than trying to explain it to people who ask. Because lot of people don't really know about having a choice. And I knew she had been facing the same situation double time.

She never talked much but I felt her sorrow in occasions when the subject was on the table. Maybe it's not entirely on that, it seems she got bored on how her life moves on. And I'm sure she was bored of me too. As for every other couple, boredom was slowly overcoming our lives. So the question I asked about children lead to many other questions about our relationship. After many heart breaking sessions, for good or bad, life continues. Still!

Problem is, is she strong enough to face the society as a no-mother? She seems to be standing firm in many other cases, but this is in a different level and I'm not sure how she handles that. What if she's sufering under her blanket? What if she secretly blaming me and her self, and our marriage?

For me to have kids, there's no reason other than the need to keep the relationship with her intact. (Poor me, I thought she'll never leave me if we had a baby) If a baby is going to add additional stability to our lives, I'd probably enjoy being in it. But as per the experience so far with the people, I don't think a kid is the ideal solution to keep the stability of a family.

Breaking bad! Half cooked notes!

It's all of what they say. It deserves to be one of the best TV series, period. So I'm not gonna talk about the typical aspects and details of the series.

But I want to talk about how my mind worked through the episodes. Not much but there's nothing coming to mind to upload on this page.

To put it in a single sentence, it's about the struggle, struggle of the people for the couse of there lives which they believe that they live for.

it's ironic how Walter White kind of lose the very expectation of his life. Losing his wife and kids over some stupid disbelief. And I hated his wife for that. But she cannot be blamed. It's what any woman may do. The only problem with her is that she didn't give WW a chance to prove himself worthy of what he did.

Wife moving on with another man means doing the same thing against her husband. As back to back for husband which she believed had an affair with a second phone line. And that means the unfaithfulness can lead to many disasters. And how Walter handled the situation is totally acceptable because of the culture. If it happened is SL or in a country with a similar cultural background, which treats the family as a holy one, the family will be ripped apart badly by the situation.

And Skyler not giving enough chance to WW to explain him self is the key to extend the story.

Love the intro music and those spanish songs throughout.

What is the character of his elder son Walter junior, he doesn't add much to the story. But he's like a catalyst. The entire family revolves around him in critical situations. And thus advances the story. The character of Hank, the DEA agent being a relative seems odd but it also does a main part in advancing the story. The story could be built the same way even if those were not there. but those are smart character placements. They are balancing the story.

WJ is balancing the family but he cannot go to extremes due to his physical state. If he was a fully capable kid, he would have follow his father and mother maybe and spoil the whole thing. But he's not and he's kind of sticking the family together from the start. He's the reason the white family being together after all. Maybe even from the beginning.

All the characters are well played. And without arguments i can say my favourite character is Jessie. Aaron Paul is excellent in this character. He's pronounce, eyes, and moods are really excellent. And it even wanted me to watch some his other performances.

Can't accept the mistakes WW giving out. There were not much and don't remember enough to mention the exact moments but there were some unacceptable plot holes to continue the story. But as a smart person like WW cannot be like that.

If we started the whole story from a middle, we won't find Walter a promising one since we have no idea of his motives to be the person he become. We might not make him the hero but a criminal. Ironic.

Obsession can ruin you. In the last season, WW's obsession with the business and Skyler's obsession with what happened with Ted ruins their lives.

It's like a wound that newer cures. You don't let it be cured. You poke it with a fork and thus keep it a wound.

OMG the star trek dialog by two meth heads amazed me as a Trekkie.

Actually these notes were just typed while watching the series about 4 months ago and when I had the time to post, didn't remember why I wrote some lines. So this is just a half cooked post.